Saturday, April 21, 2007

this american life

I just finished listening to a radio program Ira Glass has an amazing tone of knowing in his voice, he always has the right questions and it seems that for the most part he gets them answered...

Thank Nancy Updike for the great photo of Ira.

I have questions again; most of the unanswered. What does it mean to be an adult? Why do we have to act a certain way? When do we officially grow up. What if we don't? What if we do sometimes?
Our children grow up acting like a mixture of them and us and every thing that came before us. At some point they become the adult and we become the child. We pretend to be adults and they try to act like what they think an adult is.
I really would like to know what being an adult is; is it related to the accumulation of knowledge; or is it the accumulation of experience that shapes our reality? How does perception come into play? Can we use our perception as an excuse for our behavior? When do we really know what it means to be "adult"?

(ə-dŭlt', ăd'ŭlt)
  1. One who has attained maturity or legal age.
  2. Biology. A fully grown, mature organism.
  1. Fully developed and mature.
  2. Relating to, intended for, or befitting adults: adult education.
  3. Containing or dealing in explicitly sexual material; pornographic: adult movies; adult bookstores.
that is what Webster tells me but it says nothing about the me within the Self.

How many generations would it take to truly heal the afflictions that we carry with us that are not truly our affliction, but the ones we where handed by our parents parents parents, by society and the narrow world view we have from our TVs and our own back yard.

If life is truly experiential then we must experience to really live....

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Soft What

It never has amazed me more how we can have an OS and an APP that works fine together until we NEED them to work. I just spent 2 hours trying to get my accounting software to recognize the Internet connection that I'm listening to streaming audio and looking at a web page through... finally after trying and fighting with Windows 2000 professional and Quick books 2005 on a computer that I have been using for 2 years...I get up go to my laptop rewrite the invoice because there is no way to transfer the data without a big hassle. and send it via email in 2 minutes like I tried to do for 2 hours.

Why am I ranting about this? I don't know? Maybe because I waisted the last 2 hours when I could have finished the waxes I was supposed to have done tomorrow! But I also needed to send that quote too. AND look at the time its 3:00am...............I did manage to not break either computer.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

...Children of Men

A Must See Movie !!!
It is not a happily ever after movie by far. After watching this film, you must watch the extra features... Bravo ! Truth be told !

At many places in this movie I could not tell if I was watching the news or a movie.

I have no more words to describe what I have seen....

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

the mirror

It is a defining moment when you stand and look at the mirrors around you and you discover that it is you that you see...

...all of them attracted to you like a magnet to steel.

Defining is the moment when you understand why you attracted them in the first place.

and the comment becomes part of the blog

Roxy said... (as a comment to Time)

Ahhhhhh. Nice reflection my friend.
We should all take the time to reflect whether it be of Past or Future events, it's all the same that being Contemplation. I consider this to be an ART. I am beginning to understand that what I know is absolute, as in absolutely nothing. This gift allows me to remain teachable at all times and leave the end resolve up to this present moment where all is perfect and calm. If I am honest with my Self I see that I am in constant state of QUEST,hence to reflect is when I remember "ahhhh, what a waste of energy!". Reflection causes me to remember to live, here, now and forever.Remember. reflect + live.

April 7, 2007 12:41 PM

Thanks for insight, thought I'd share it...

Saturday, April 7, 2007


The great equalizer...we walk in this world oblivious to the the wake we leave in our path. A wise man once said "Mastery is to cross the surface of a lake without leaving a wake in your path" this is mastery.

If we stand against the wind, its force can push us in any direction it blows. If we change our stance instead of fighting the gust we can guide and channel the wind around us .

Friday, April 6, 2007

This took me a long time to complete, it was the birthday present that came a year late......

... frame

this frozen frame is a little something I made last year...

The silver parts where all made at different times and then mysteriously they all came together. Now they are one.

the freeze frame

a moment frozen in time...
some people are predictable, some are not...
it's the Not that will always surprise you. The predictable will surprise you by becoming a Not if the lesson you are to learn from the not isn't learned at the moment you first experience it...the experience becomes frozen in time, or stuck right where you left it.
You then get to pick up right where you left off...over and over again.
If you are content to not learn then the lesson will replay it's Self by use of a new or different medium.
So... given the opportunity, deal with the issues as they arrive not after they return again......

N.O.T. neology on the
N.O.T. next opportunity to
N.O.T. now ostentatiously talk

enough rambling about the predictable N.O.T............

Thursday, April 5, 2007

well.... old friend of mine once said that I was the catalyst that ignited the fire within her and got her motivated into action. Where is I when I need me most. I have become the opposite of what I truly am or maybe I've become what I fear most.

I'm not really sure... I think its time to mend a few broken fences and tend to the flock. Time to give back and make a mends for past behavior.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Life through a filter

Been playing with a water color filter that has a cool effect....
It seems to work better than the PS version, its MS...

you be the judge......both pics are done in MS photo editor.

...the charcoal filter is cool too I used it on the picture of me.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

2 am

Sitting in the studio at home, listening to the Drone Zone on SomaFm
longing for a prolonged stretch of time to call my own. Stealing a few hours while the world around me sleeps. I can think of 2 people I know that are up right now 1. Kim working the graveyard shift at Big Foot Espresso and 2. Gordon in his studio on Vashon Island. Each of them joining me silently in their own solitude.
The morning will come too quickly for me and the day ahead. So off to sleep I go.

Sunday, April 1, 2007

11 years

Today is the eleventh year of my self employment, It all started on April Fools Day.....This was our first casting, that's Larry on the right and me assisting. the flask we cast in that picture blew out while pouring it. It sucked the silver down into the plastic vacuum line in the off the shelf casting machine. From that day forward we never used another off the shelf casting machine. They always had to be modified to suit the what we were doing. We ended up building our own vacuum casting table, it has been used almost every day for the last eleven years. That's about 2700 lbs of metal. Larry built that machine and many others we still use today.....

Larry passed away December 1st 2005, the first photo is the very first casting we did together at his house, the next is the very last photo ever taken. He is deeply missed, I hope that somehow he is reading this.........